Saturday, 22 June 2013

Cross your heart (hope to die)


The language, you see, isn't important. It's the sentiment. Or scent-he-meant, as my maker liked to quip.

It never ceased to amuse him, God bless his tortured soul, whichever dimension it was dispatched to.

Those gurgling screams and greedy, gobbling flames of damnation that silenced them.

How the blaze crackled and spat in fury, claiming back that 'gift' which an abomination of Nature has bestowed upon our kind.  For we chosen few, that Trojan Horse has rendered Heaven and Hell places that shall remain as much folklore unto us as we are to you.

My maker's twisting, clawing silhouette is burnt onto my retina, the roar of the inferno that consumed his immortal soul shall haunt me until the day I… for a very long time.

Was it I who'd built the pyre around his shallow grave in some trance-like pre-dusk hypnosis? I sincerely do not recall. Moreover, it matters not; the deed is did, the demon dead.

But enough of the then and the gruesome echoes from the gateway to the underworld that still resonate around what remains of my mind.

It's this moment we live – or die – for. Just remember that, won't you, the next time you 'wished you were dead…'?


The city of lovers. No wonder Lestat is so enamoured with its finery and gay abandon.

From atop its Tower (and I mean its very pinnacle, not the crow's nest of a gallery that limits public ascent), even we who can pierce the clouds appreciate the awe that must humble you humans as Paris rolls out at points of the compass, neatly segregating this sprawling metropolis.

The Seine idles by, its lighted ferries twinkling, transporting tourists around The Isle, beneath its bridges and past imposing landmarks that hold their breath, scared that the countless tales of wickedness from centuries past will flood the riverbanks should they begin to flow.

The ferry passes by, the buildings sigh and France's secrets are safe for a short while longer. For that, we remain thankful.

But make no mistake, guilt hath no part to play in our existence, not now.

Our purpose is to release those citizens from the shackles of pain who are too weak to face life's tribulations, the heartache it serves up in a never-ending banquet of love's labours lost and who crave for their corporeal existence to be truncated swiftly and mercifully.

We are their angels and archangels. We fly unto them upon the ravenous wings of night itself.

One look into our eyes and the weak, the lovelorn and the destitute know that their prayer has been answered, whether their plea was issued with sincerity or not.

skull on fire
For to countenance our being, see us for what we are, for whom we really are, bears sentence more cruel than any revolutionary guillotine.

In that fleeting second of recognition, you are bound, tried and judged.

Before the opportunity to renounce your mortal sins presents itself, your final prayer has been answered.

That gift of life which Mother Nature crafted into your heart, mind and soul is prematurely released back into Her keep, though she thanks us not.

No, that's just one more reason She hates us for who and what we are and 'tis the reason we are sentenced to the night.

But there are far worse reasons why we shall never be kissed by either the sun's life-giving rays or Her blessing.

For at the moment we stared death in the face, we neither crumbled nor complied, but challenged the Hell behind those eyes.

Yes, we once suffered the cruel rejection of love, as have those pitiful souls whose angels of mercy we become; yet we survived the kiss of the vampire.

Our hatred of love itself for the pain it made us unwillingly feel and the desire for revenge against the humans who could be so cruel as to inflict it deflected death, bent it to our will and serves to keep us in this neither land.

Ours is a place between worlds, through which only few beings in all of God's Kingdom have right of passage.

Ours is a haven where Mother Nature cannot touch us; a land where the sun's rays are not welcome, for only death prospers here; a realm that mortals know exists but, for the sake of their sanity, prefer not to acknowledge.

If you stick around, I'll take you on a journey into Slippage.  But be warned, I cannot guarantee that you will return here with either your mind, your body or your soul intact.

Powers, thoughts and temperaments exist within our world that would have the most evil of humans cowering for their mother in puddles of their own excretion.

All manner of creatures try to escape its boundaries into the many worlds beyond; only a few have the intellect to do so without getting obliterated.  Trust me when I say it's a good thing for the human race that this remains so.

So are you up for it, this journey?  Really?  Only your fullest commitment can possibly save you, should you accept my hand.  It is from Slippage that you think your senses pick up on:

  • That ghost of a shadow you see at the very edge of your peripheral vision

  • That glare you feel burning into your back, cast by an empty room

  • That impossible creak-creak-creak edging up the stairwell at twilight

  • That floating gossamer strand tickling across your cheek at sunset

  • That tapping branch on the window pane on a still, silent summer's eve

And none of it was me, Precious, I cross your heart and hope to die…

…but let me just leave you with this extract while you make up your mind, which personifies our motivation more closely than you know. A UK number one, no less, from thirty years ago. A prophecy realised?

Until next time then, Precious, when I return to see if you have found your reservoir of resolve.  Don't take too long; I may be back sooner than you think…
"What I want to say - but my words just fail

Is that I need it so I can't help myself
Like a hungry child, I just help myself
And when I'm all full up I go out to play

But I don't mean to bleed you dry
Or take you over for the rest of your life
It's just that I need something solid in mine

Lonely as the moors on a winter's morning
Quiet as the sea on a good calm night
In your tranquil shadow I try and follow

I hear your distant shoe clicks to the midnight beat
I feel trapped in sorrow in this imagery
But that's how I am and why I need you so"

© words/music Paul Weller. Precious, The Jam, The Gift, 1982.


Friday, 2 November 2012

NaNoWriMo update - The Seed, by Zebedeerox, is on the blog

This post's just for my followers, really.  Of course, there's nothing stopping you from becoming one, but I'm keeping this post under the radar, so it's unlikely anyone else will pick it up.

The novel I'm writing for NaNoWriMo is on the blog, but on a password-protected page (I hope).

The link is here: The Seed, Jerald Larson.

The synopsis and an excerpt, to see if you think you'll like it, is here on my NaNo Profile.

The pictures I'll be putting on the Pinterest board I hope to start tomorrow and do a good couple of hours to start building the board.
That's it - the little grey cells am knackered.

Thanks for listening.


Saturday, 27 October 2012

NaNoWriMo - 'The Seed' synopsis

Okay - you can read this on my NaNoWriMo profile, but for those of you who've not found your way over there yet, here's what this year's National Novel Writing Month story by Zebedeerox is going to be about.

Darren Hicks (a budding reporter and our protagonist) returns from vacation with huge swathes of the fortnight missing from his memory and his skin, if anything, is paler than when he flew out two weeks earlier with his father.Seed Cover

What he puts down to a fever when he gets back sees him return to work later than his allocated vacation. As a punishment, his boss (who takes more than a passing interest in him upon his return) sends him to The Highlands to investigate two random murders, which soon turn out to be related.

As he investigates, flashbacks from his vacation begin to haunt him, lending credence to the whisperings of vampires that several eventual allies start to consider as plausible rather than improbable.

With growing evidence that there is indeed a vampire on the prowl, a police officer - pining for the love of his life taken years ago upon their wedding night in similar circumstances to the current murders - along with Darren and his new-found allies seek to thwart the Nightstalker before a) the true story leaks out and b) to bring closure to the many aspects affecting said merry band of vampire-hunters.

There's a lengthy prologue before the story kicks off for real, whilst Darren's flashbacks escalate alongside the story hinting at what happened in the Canaries; this all leads to...well, let's just say a pretty gory finale.

Thursday, 19 July 2012

Billy came - the story so far

I'm going to be away for a week or so from tomorrow, if for no other reason than to give these arthritic old bones a bit of a break from this god-awful British summer and seeing if the latest therapy does the trick, or not.

I know a fair few followers of have already asked me if I'm going to turn Billy came, the short vampire novella (rapidly growing into a fully fledged novel at the behest of the characters, themselves) into a book...the truth is, I simply don't know if it's good enough.  Let alone do I have a clue where Sebastian and Perveen are going to take me next, now that they've been plunged down yet another level below terra firma, only this time under the wing, quite literally, of Vlad Țepeș himself.

Some of you have joined the vampire story half way through or relatively close to the point the tale's at.  When you're online it can be a bit of a pain in the neck to keep flicking from post to post, which in the case of Billy came, equates to from chapter to chapter, especially when you've got other stuff you need to be doing.

Now, I know us bloggers and writers all have extremely busy lives, not only with keeping up with our online presence but also with the stuff we do off-line.  Including life itself.  But if you get the chance, I've uploaded Bill came, the story so far as a .pdf file.  This incorporates all of the first three parts of this tentative toe into the waters of creative writing and the beginning of part four.

If anyone gets the time whilst I'm away to cast an eye over the story (approx 50 pages / almost 25k words) I'd really appreciate some honest feedback.  Am I urinating into the wind or is it worth developing further?

Right - I'll take up no more of your valuable time, only herewith the link:

Billy came - the story so far

Bless you all, and I'll see you in a week, or so.

Thank you so very much,


Friday, 22 June 2012

Billy came 1

Billy Came - a short vampire story

Part One  - The Making of a Vampire

One: He came like the thief in the night

It was strange that he should choose this night of all to call. 'The Longest Day'. A day that would prove to be my eternal night.

summer solstice sunrise over stone henge
Summer Solstice | strange day for a vampire to call…
Thinking back but a few hours, although it seems a lifetime hence, I think he chose last night on a purpose.  According to lore, June 21st should have afforded Billy the least time in the year to carry out his damned courtship and wooing of my immortal soul.

Yes, immortal. It is now, or at least I am of the impression that that's how these things work.

He abides by no law, Billy. That I know. He's bound by neither natural nor ethereal forces. He pays no heed to myths, those written or whispered in the depths of a million nights through the ages that have borne legends of his kind.